Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Eeeek!

I've just signed up for my second 10k run! Eeek! I don't know if I can do it. I mean, I know I have done it already and that I can DO a 10ker but it just doesn't feel like I can do it! I feel old and slow and slothy, not young and fast and lithe, like I want to feel!

I am running with two of my new running friends from my old gym. They are ladies in their early fifties and they are such an inspiration to me. Both of them are fantastic runners but one in particular is just a gun! Actually we call her 'Guns' because she's a 55yo gym junkie running chick and she just deserves that moniker lol.

Every Saturday or Sunday we all run together, at our own pace and then we have breakfast together. We feel we've earned it lol. Actually sometimes I think it's the thought of the breakfast that gets us out of bed in the morning!! lol.

So, I'm once again in training. I'm actually in week 2 of a 5 week bootcamp. I've done a bootcamp mission before and nothing, I mean NOTHING gets you fit like bootcamp does. Actually it was doing bootcamp that got me fit enough to do that first 10k so I'm glad it's here again!

I've been terribly sick these past few weeks, I had the flu, laryngitis and a secondary chest infection all at once. Oh and a double ear infection too. I didn't train at all for almost two weeks and when I came back in to it I could hardly move. I've gradually been getting back into training, getting better each day. On Sunday I ran about 4k, it was awful I could hardly breathe. Today I ran 5k and I felt fantastic. I did about 5min of stomach crunches afterwards and then a 1100m row. I'm gradually getting back on track :)

Saturday, November 6, 2010

More pics of the Tiger Cubs

Please excuse Jonah's grubby jacket! He'd been munching on something very tasty that day lol. He's still in size ones, tiny little bear. But, he's starting to grow a lot more now so hopefully he will have more career choices than just 'Jockey' lol





Pics as Promised :)

Here are some pics of the kids as promised. I don't have time to load them into photobucket first so you've just got the copy straight from my computer sorry lol. First one is Tiger Sam. How gorgeous is he!? Then Jonah, getting all grown up and gorgeous, then Sam again, then Jonah, then Luke lol. Gosh, I'm going to have to start using photobucket again lol.














Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Ooops!

Been a bit neglectful haven't I? I really do try and get back here but seriously, any spare time I have is just eaten away these days. Plus, this blog will soon be moving. I'm finding it too distracting having two blogs going. Given I don't have time to look after one, having two means they're both neglected. So, watch this space for the new address TBA!

Anyhoo, what's been happening here?

Lots!

Since my last post we have had another of our darling boys diagnosed on the Autism spectrum. It was only after Jonah's diagnosis that I started to wonder whether some of the quirky things that Sam was doing might actually be autism. We fronted up to the developmental paediatrician and got the go ahead to have him formally assessed. What we saw surprised us.

Sam has a very high general knowlege IQ. He was tested at 4yrs 8m, the test hits the ceiling at 7yrs 3m...he got to the end of the test and there was nowhere else to go so we really don't know how high his IQ actually is. However when the speech assessment was done he failed in the areas of pragmatic language skills. This bought his IQ down to 108, still very good but if not for the language deficits and the fact he takes everything literally, his score (apparently) would have been 120+. They want to test him again in two years, after he has had some speech therapy to see how he goes.

So, our gorgeous Sam has been given the official diagnosis of high functioning autism (HFA) and now all of those quirks and crazy things he did make sense! Followers of my old blog will remember posts titled 'Cranky little genius', all dedicated to Sam. He showed amazing brightness from an early age but he just never had any common sense lol. Yep, typical HFA!

He's doing well though. He's seeing a great psych and a speech pathologist and he's going great. He will be starting prep next year and is loving the transition to his new school. We didn't apply for an aid because his IQ was too high to get funding.

Now to Jonah. What a little superstar. He's going great at the learning centre and they have done some amazing work with him. He now has a total of 13 words. This is up from none back in March. He doesn't say them all the time and he won't say them on command but we do hear them and that's enough for us.

He is also showing some fantastic play skills, points all the time (he never used to point at all), plays with his toys appropriately, loves his 'dolly' and pushes her in the pram all day, brings me my shoes, loves to sing (although every word is 'Ga ga ga') and he has a great singing voice! He actually keeps in tune really well so although he can't say the words we know the song because we can hear the tune lol.

He's still little but is growing. He's 2yrs 4m and is still wearing size one in pants but has snuck into some size 2 tops even though they're still a little big. His heath has settled a lot and his digestive issues seem to be correcting themselves. We still see a gastroenterologist but he seems to be going well.

His main area of concern is his severe language delay. Some of his words are just sounds but we know what he is trying to say. For example 'Ahya' means 'I want food or water'. It's a spin off from 'nana' which he leaned to say when he was going thgough his 'I will eat nothing but bananas' phase lol. So now when he says 'Ahya' we know it's food or water he wants.

He had his first full time week at the learning centre last week and he coped really well. For those who don't know, the learning centre is using the Early Start Denver Model (ESDM) with Jonah and it's just amazing how well he is doing and in such a short space of time. I notice so many changes in the other kids there too.

Luke is just fantastic. He is nearing the end of his first year of prep and is already reading, spelling and doing maths at grade 2 level. It's not just a Mummy brag but he is at the top of his class. He and a little girl have surprised us all with how well they are doing. He's such a gorgeous kid, very sensitive but he loves his footy! LOL.

Me? Well, I am still a gym junkie. I actually have two gym memberships now, how sad is that?! LOL and I am very very proud to say I have recently completed my first ever 10k run! I did it in a great time (for me lol) and am now training for another 10ker in 5 weeks time, a 15k in April and the bog half marathon next year. Maybe, just maybe....a marathon after that!

I will hit send on this now before Jonah wakes and destroys it. Then I will put up some pics!

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Mundane

Sometimes I just don't update my blog because it just seems that my life is so mundane at the moment and there's just not a lot to say! I'm busier than ever but I just can't think of what I'm actually doing that would be worth writing in here lol.

Jonah is at the new learning centre now. They do the Early Start Denver Method there (ESDM) but there's more about that in his blog. I now spend anywhere from 2-4 hours a day driving him too and from the centre. It's a lot of driving time but compared to the help he's getting I really don't care.

On Tuesday we're having Sam assessed for Aspergers syndrome. I hadn't given a single thought that he might have ASD but since having Jonah diagnosed with autism, so much falls into place for Sam. He's always gone to the beat of his own drum but lately we've noticed that his social skills just aren't where they should be. He's a smart kid, very smart but he doesn't get social queues and social norms like he should. So, off to the paed we go to see what the deal is there!

Luke is just going great guns at school. Honestly, I know parents like to brag but we just thought he was average until we had his parent teacher night. Turns out he's working at almost grade two level in English and Maths! He's only in prep so he's at least a year and a half ahead of where he should be. The school is very accomodating and gives him work and homework according to his abilities. We're so proud of him. He's also become such a social butterfly too which, given he had such a bad anxiety disorder, is just amazing!

Darling Husband and I are plodding along. We both hit the gym hard these days and it really does help difuse tension and anxiety in both of us. I am doing boot camp now and will be at that six days a week for 5 weeks. Then it's straight into a new 12 week fitness challenge. No alcohol or bad food until Christmas now!!

How will I ever survive??!!

Sunday, July 25, 2010

He Won!

Remember the 12 week challenge? The one Darling Husband and I entered? The fitness and lifestyle change challenge? Well, last Friday night we had the 'Night of Champions' which is the night when all of the 100 entrants and their partners get together and the winner of each club are announced as well as the 'Grand Champion'. We thought that Darling Husband might be a contender for club champion as he did extremely well but when all of the club champions were announced and Darling Husbands name wasn't mentioned we weren't dissapointed as they were all such deserving winners.

But then came time to announce the Grand Champion. Now, both Darling Husband and I thought that the Grand Champion (GC) was chosen from the winning club champions so we were really interested in seeing if our club champion made the grade but weren't expecting it to be either of us so weren't paying as much attention as we probably should have been.

At the start of these challenges, as an entrant you have to write a testimony, a reason why you're doing this challenge and what you think you will gain from it. At the end of the challenge you write another testimony as to how you've changed since embarking on the challenge. Both testimonies are read out as the grand champion is revealed. This is where it gets funny.

They start reading out the testimony..

Speaker: "I am the Father of five children.."

Darling Husband:" Oh hang on, this could be me!"

Me: "Shhh...I'm listening!"

Speaker: "I have a desk job and when I come home from work I sit on the couch..."

Darling Husband: "Umm, I really think this is my testimony."

Me: "SHHHHH! I can't hear what he's saying!"

Speaker: "Reads out the rest of the testimony."

Me (to Darling Husband): "Oh my goodness! I think that's you!"

Darling Husband: "Thats what I've been trying to tell you!"

And yes it was indeed my Darling champion Husband who took out the Grand Champion prize. I am so proud of him and even a week later we are both still in shock! We've both become health fanatics which is so far from where we both were only a year ago. It does get hard and old habits die hard but all in all I think we will be following this path forever now.

If I get game enough I'll put up some of our before and after pics. They're quite astounding!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Oh so much has happened!

Forgive me blogreaders for it has been 12 weeks since my last post :P Gosh, I just re read my last post and it was at the start of the challenge. Well that challenge finished on Saturday lol.

I am so happy with my results, I worked really hard every day and it shows. All up I lost 14.5kg in the 12 weeks and 76.5cm from my body. My body fat percentage is now 26% which is really not too bad for someone my age! I want to get it a bit lower but I'm actually in the 'normal' range for body fat percentage. W00t to me!

And the most exciting part, I did the fun run and I RAN THE WHOLE WAY!! 4.2ks, ran the lot, got it in 28m 38sec, and new PB for me :)

I have been training six days a week with a PT or group and I can now say that at the ripe old age of 42 I am a fit healthy female :) I still want to lose a few more kilos but can you believe I'm now a stock standard size 14? Yep! I am. That's a bit of a drop from someone who, a year ago was boardering on a size 20-22. Yikes!

Ohh and Darling Husband did extraordinarily well. He lost 17kg and 100cm from his body. Happy dance for him! You should see how fit he is now too. We're both gym junkies LOL

I now run regularly and do at least 30min or 4ks once a week plus other training. It's so good to not be so exhausted when I run. I love it, oh I still get tired and at the end of it I've had enough but I actually enjoy it now and I can do it.

Perseverence certainly pays off. Luckily I'm so stubborn :P

OK, that's it for me for now but I will be back regularly to post again soon. My computer broke and all I had was my iPhone which is too hard to blog with. I have a new computer now so I promise I'll be more regular :P

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Challenges Ahead.

On Monday I embark on another 12 week gym challenge. 12 weeks of hard training, food/alcohol depravation and lots of sweat and tears, hopefully no blood!

I have done one of these challenges before, I actually blogged about it last year. It was hard but I loved it and I got some great results. So now I am doing it all again and it starts on Monday. I will be training 6 days per week with three weight training days and three cardio training days. My PT wants me to have a rest from running and just maintain the level I am currently at. Six weeks in to the challenge we will reintroduce the running and ramp it up towards the end.

I don't think I will keep a separate blog for this challenge. I am having a hard enough time keeping up with this one and Jonah's autism blog. But I will put results in here as they come through.

Oh and I almost forgot the best part!!! Darling Husband is partaking in this event too! He has a different trainer to me but he's going to join in the challenge. It's a race between us now lol. We're both doing it for our health but we're mainly doing it for Jonah. We need to know that we can get through this, that we can rise above the pain and exhaustion and keep going. Because then we know, no matter what, we will always be able to keep going for Jonah.

Come join in the fun and cheer me on!

Me? In a fun run??

You'd better believe it! Next weekend I am participating in my first ever fun run! I started running a year ago and I sucked (still do) but I kept at it. Last year I was extremely unfit, overweight and suffering from type 2 diabetes. I had recently joined a gym and was slowly working my way back to life.

And I was doing ok. Slowly but surely I did ok. Running was hard and at first I couldn't do more than a single minute before having to stop. I have built up on that but I find it very hard as I still have no stamina. Even now, after a whole year (acutally less than but I'll explain) I can still only run for 15 minutes straight before having to stop. Yes, I'm running 15 times more than I was this time last year but most people I know who started running when I did have done their first 10k-er by now. I would just DIE!

In October last year I had a terrible case of shin splints and compartment syndrome which almost saw me in hospital having my legs sawed open to relive the pressure. I had run too much in one week with not enough rest and it was enough to see me out of running for 4 whole months. So really, I started running last year but I have only been running for 8 months, and only a trickle here and there.

Then 9 weeks ago I started a running programme designed by my personal trainer. There are ten of us doing the 10 week programe and we each have our own personal running plan drawn up. Everyone else who is in this has been running for ages, is fit, fast and experienced. They are all pushing out 8k runs a few times a week, Good on them I say!

But, little ol me is the oldest and slowest of the bunch but I am so happy with how I have done. We started from scratch at the start of the programe with me only running 20 seconds then walking for a mintute, run 20sec walk for a minute until 20 minutes had passed. We built this up each weak so, the next time I would run 30 seconds walk a minute, then run 45 sec, walk 1 min...then the walking part got shorter and shorter until yesterday when I did a full lap of our circuit in 15 minutes non stop. Huge, and I mean huge achievement for me. It means I am getting better and stronger and more effecient so I should be able to build on that further and keep getting better.

So, next week is my first fun run! It's a 4ker and I won't be able to do it non stop but I will be able to walk/run it and finish it. I'm not nervous because I have done this track before. I just want to beat my best time. I really am looking forward to it!

Wish me luck!!

Friday, March 26, 2010

Sugar Free. Easy as can be!

So, I am now about11 days sugar free and this has been a lot easier than last time. I don't think I had any real cravings or withdrawals this time. It's all been smooth sailing.

I had forgotten how much sugar affects my appetite. When I have sugar in my diet I eat so much more, I'm never really full and always find myself foraging for food lol. When I am off sugar I actually find times when I need to remind myself to eat. I eat so much less now, I can feel the food in my stomach and get full so much quicker and after much less food.

I still get cravings now and then for chocolate or cake but it's just a "Oh that would be nice," kind of craving and not a "Give it to me now or will kill you and step over your cold dead body to get to it!" kind of craving. There is a difference lol.

My darling little nephew is doing well. He has had his operation and is on the long road to recovery but he is in the best hands and is doing well. He will be in for about a month. BIL and SIL finally got to cuddle him yesterday.

Ok, just a quick post today. I went for a run this morning and I am starving!! Time to eat....sugar free of course :P

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

A week or so ago...

I was waiting to see if my baby has Autism. There has been an update on that here....

http://kickingthewolf.blogspot.com/

This is Jonah's blog which I want to keep separate from this one so please feel free to head on over there and have a look around :)

OK so, when I last posted I was also awating the birth of a brand new nephew, he was due in for days time. I am proud to say that baby Otis arrived yesterday and he is just gorgeous. Unforuntately Otis was born with a hole is his diaphragm and some of his internal organs have moved into his chest cavity. This was not picked up in the scan and was totally unexpected.

He's doing well, has been transfered to the childrens hospital and will have surgery tomorrow or the next day. He looks a lot like his cousin Luke when he was born and I can't help but want to pick up that boy and squish him good!!

Luke is loving school and is doing so much better than we expected! He has mastered all of his 100 magic words and is now well into the next set! They get 100 words divided up onto coloured sheets and learn each set before moving on to the next. It starts with the Golden words and he learned those two days after he got them. That was the pattern, every time he would get a new set of words he would know them all two days after. He's just hooting along!

Sam is not coping as well without Luke home but he's doing ok. Sam, the child whom I said God gave me because He couldn't handle him, has turned into the most quiet, placid, Angelic little boy. I cannot believe he is the same child lol. He is so quiet, sentitive and just so loving. He doesn't destroy the house any more, thankfully, and he is such a joy to be around.

I think God knew that there would be no Mummy left if he gave me Sam as he was and Jonah together! :P

Now, that sugar thing. I am thrilled to say I am still off the sugar and hope to be for a very long time. I just cannot cannot cannot eat it. It goes straight to my mid section and I can't shift it! Plus, it makes me feel downright awful. I sleep poorly, I can't concentrate, my skin goes terrible and I generaly feel lethargic and foggy headed when I am on sugar.

I am so happy to be off it again. I have also told people that I will not be joining them for dessert when we are out. My birthday was the last hoorah and that's it!

I am starting another 12 week challenge at my gym and have been doing a running programme for the past 7 weeks. I have made some great gains but I still need to shift some kilos so I don't feel like I'm running with a weight vest on when all I am wearing is a T shirt lol. I shall keep you all updated on that one!

OK, nuff from me.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Hectic

Everything is just so hectic. I've pretty much fallen apart but I'm busily putting the pieces back together again. Looking back on the past month I'm quite suprised I got through it. I'm tired, fed up, worried, stressed, busy, uncertain and nothing will change in the near future. That in iteself is quite daunting.

Darling Husband and I have decided that we will do nothing, absolutely nothing that will cause any added stress to our family. We've been quite ruthless about accepting and declinging invitations to places and events that might cause added stress, even though they're meant to 'give us a break.'. People just don't understand that even dropping by for a catch up quick coffee or a catch up can be a stressful event these days. My home is my sanctuary right now and it's all I can do just to keep things running smoothly here. Having to entertain and accomodate visitors is just a bit beyond me at the moment. I know people thing 'but it's only us' and that they'll help themselvs to coffee etc but I'm just not comfortable plodding around in my pyjamas in front of guests and there are some days where I don't actually want to get out of my pyjamas!

I fell well and truly off the sugar free bandwagon, skinning my knees and my pride in the process. I've made a concious decision to get back on that wagon and that started today. I am much better when I am sugar free. Going back on it at least had the benefit of proving to me that I just can't eat it. I felt dreadful, my skin again turned horrid, the weight I lost came back on and my energy levels fell through the floor.

But I can't stay and wallow in self pity, it's too lonely here. I think I've had my sook and my scream and shout and now it's time to pick up, dust off and get moving. Thanks to anyone out there who is still following along this blog. I heart you muchly xxx

Giving up Sugar (again)

Day 1: Going well so far!!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Slipping!

I slipped. I ate sugar, just a little bit but eat it I did. It's amazing how just one taste will get you back to craving it again.

We'd gone out and I hadn't planned my eating. I should know by now never to do this as I always end up in trouble. We've just been so busy with Jonah and I have again put myself last. I had eaten a really good breakfast (vegetable omelete) but suddenly it was 4.30pm and I was getting dizzy. I hadn't eaten another thing ALL DAY! That is so unlike me, I am a firm believer in six small meals a day and I usually only miss one, if any.

So here I was in Coles, about to crash into a hypo. I felt that familiar disorientation feeling and started to sweat profusely. Classic hypo symptoms. What I needed was sugar and now. Problem when you are having a hypo is that your brain is starved of sugar so you don't generally make wise decisions. This was no exception!

I went to the lolly aisle and grabbed chocolate. Chocolate is full of sugar but it's medium GI so it doesn't get into your blood stream fast enough. I should have gone for the jelly beans.

The chocolate didn't work fast enough and I was getting worse. At least my brain had enough sense to go for the next best thing after jelly beans, juice! I grabbed a large breakfast juice and drank it without coming up for air. I knew now that even though I felt like death was fast on my badk, I'd had adequate sugar and I didn't need any more. The craving for a cherry ripe was really hard to thwart lol.

The juice had given me an immediate sugar hit so after about ten minutes I started to feel much better. The chocolate held me up until I was able to get home and cook dinner. Unfortaintely my body had had sugar and it liked what it saw!

The next day the cravings were strong. I really wanted more. I tried to justify it that I could have just a little bit but I knew in my head that it was the wrong thing to do. Come night time I was almost climbing the walls again. I had no fruit in the house exept for some frozen berries so I couldn't even get a healthy fructose hit. I was within seconds of sending Darling Husband out to get me some chocolate...

Then I remembered, I DID have some fruit in the house...banana! I chopped some up, mixed it with some weet bix and it was bliss! The perfect sugar hit without feeding teh addiction. It worked, the cravings were gone and I was back on track.

I have also had my first sugarless coffee. I'd given up coffee back in September in a bid to cut down my sugar intake. I could not drink coffee without sugar and for those who know me, using any kind of sweetner is never going to happen! So I just had to stop drinking coffee altogether. I'd tried cutting down and just having one sugar but I hated it, it just wasn't worth drinking the coffee when I didn't enjoy it.

So, I gave it up. I had two coffee's over Christmas but didn't enjoy them without the sugar. Yesterday I had a coffee with no sugar and I realy enjoyed it! I'd planned to try it with glucose but I forgot to take it with me. I am still shocked. I never ever thought I could enjoy a coffee with no sugar. It just goes to show how much I depended on the taste of sugar to make things palatable. Now that I'm not longer relying on the taste I can enjoy foods for their own flavour, not the mask that sugar coats them with.

Kicking the Wolf.

The wolf came to see me in a dream about two weeks ago. He was preceeded by a gunman who was chasing me through the house, only one step behind me as I ran for my life.

The gunman was after me, the wolf was stalking Jonah.

Kicking the Wolf.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Relief.

It's over, the MRI is done and again we wait. We also had some chromosome tests and more blood work done while he was under the general anaesthetic. Our appointment was for 11.30am with admission at 11.00am. We arrived half an hour early and went straight through admissions and into the MRI rooms. Jonah was under the anaesthetic by 11.15am, much sooner than I had anticipated!

He had to fast for 6 hours prior to the procedure so this morning when he woke at 3am I kept him awake. We played for an hour and I turned on the TV and all the lights so he'd think it was morning time. At 4am I fed him a bowl of weetbix and mashed banana and kept getting him to drink water. The poor little thing was wondering why I was chasing him around trying to shovel food into him LOL.

At 5.20am he fell asleep in my arms after having a big breastfeed. He was so full he could harly move lol. When he woke again just before 9am I knew he woudln't be starving. We headed off to the hospital at 10am, stopping for petrol along the way to drag out the time. The waiting room had these amazing panels on the walls that had all manner of things to flip turn and spin. Jonah loved it!!!

We're home. He's safe and fast asleep in my bed. I am off to snuggle up to him soon. I will be starting another blog with this journey in it. I want to keep is separate from our general blog because we're so new into this journey I don't want it to completely take over and I need to keep references for later on as he progresses through his surgery.

Keep an eye out for the new home!!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Tomorrow

Tomorrow morning Jonah has his MRI. They are looking for some conditions that mimic autism and/or cause the same symptoms but also have other componants. His EEG is booked for March 12, so by the time we get back to the developmental paed on March 18 we will have our answers.

It's moving fast. For that I am grateful, we're not left languishing in a system we can't control. But I'm scared too. It feels like it's all getting out of control, going too fast.

I'm finding it hard to look at Jonah and remember what it was like to not know this, to not look at him and see Jonah and autism together. I want to go back a few weeks ago where I looked at him and saw only Jonah. I've already forgotten what that's like.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

So hard to say.

I hate that I have to do this post. I have not wanted to say anything until we were sure and until we had some answers but today any hope that it was all a bad dream were dashed.

Jonah has been gradually regressing and losing his ability to comminucate. Today he was given the preliminary diagnosis of Autism.

We saw our regular paediatrician on Monday. He evaluated Jonah and put his cognitive, social/emotional and fine motor skills as that of about an 8 month old. He sent us to an emergency appointment with a developmental paediatrician. That appointment was today. The Dev Pead is certain Jonah has autism. She said she never gives the diagnosis on the first visit because she needs to rule out other causes but if she were to go by what she saw today, he'd definitely get a positive diagnosis.

She has booked Jonah in for an MRI, en EEG and numerous blood tests. If they are clear then we get the positive diagnosis of autism because there is nothing else causing the regression and the other traits he has. If they are not clear then we're in serious trouble. These tests are to rule out 'more sinister' conditions. Unfortunately now, Autism is the good outcome, the best one we can hope for.

My baby has autism
My child is autistic
I have an autistic child
My son has autism
Jonah is autistic
Jonah has autism

Whatever way I say it, it just doesn't sound like the words are coming from me, or that I'm talking about MY child. Not my child. My child isn't autistic, he doesn't have autism.

I just cannot get my head around this.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

The Blogies. I haz one.

I have been awarded the most awesome of bloggy awards..."The Blogie".

And as you can see for your very own eyes, it truly is an awesome sight.

And it's MINE! (But I must pass it on)

I was awarded this most wonderful of blog awards by the very funny, clever and awesome Jen over at Jemikaan (<-- If you click that Jemikaan dowhacky there it will take you to her blog!)




In accepting this award I must thank those that have bought me here. Blogging is something I love doing and it still astounds me every day that some of you out there actually drop in to read this crap that I dribble. I've lost a lot of followers since blogger sliced and diced my old fiveby40 blog into nothingness but it's good to see you all trickling back in, and not to mention the new faces too!

I want to pass this Blogie on to special folk out ther in Blogland. I do love each and every blog that I follow but there are some I tend to click on a little more than others and I think it's because these particular people really do 'get' me. But I do love youz all :D

Kakka She's just such a darling heart. I always know she's out there reading and being so unbelieveably supportive of me. She's been watching my journey of Jonah's pregnancy, the aftermath, the fitby41 blog and even now she's still there cheering me on. She has an awesome blog that is just straight from the heart. I always feel so calm after popping in there for a read. It's like going into a quiet room for some time out lol. So Karen, please accept this Blogie as a token of my thanks.

Danni Over at 'Ramblings of a Mama' has a great versatile blog, always interesting and funny. Danni and I have known each other since Paige and Sam were babies and we keep trying to catch up but it just never happens! This year, Danni....this year!!!

And although there are at least 20 people I want to pass this on to, I am just going to pick one more....

Sunny Side Up .Kirrily's blog. Just go there, read a few posts, and you'll know why.

So you three...step up and grab your Blogie!!

My Pet Peeve

Nutella.




This stuff ^^ it's truly horrid. How any parent can justify giving it to their child is beyond me. Even before I became a fructophope I still knew Nutella was not a food any child (or adult for that matter) should ever be eating. People, it's a jar of sugar and fat. Before you even see a hazelnut you have to get past 85% sugar and fat. That's right, there is almost 55% sugar in that jar and 30% fat, that's almost 85% sugar and fat alone.

It's not food, it's poison dressed up as a chocolate spread.

The first month.

So the first month of being sugar free is over. I'm over the worst of the cravings but I do get the 'urge' now and then. I think it was be like nicotine. When you give up nicotine you get over the cravings but the desire for it does come back now and then. You know it's not strong enough to make you succumb but it still pops up.

That's the way it is with sugar. Usually it's a visual trigger. We were shopping one day and I walked past the biscuit aisle. Biscuit aisles have Tim Tams in them. When I saw them I really wanted to eat one but I didn't crave it. It just would have been nice. Walking away was easy and as soon as I was out of that aisle I'd forgotten all about them.

Official weigh in has me three kilos lighter. It's not a huge amount but it is the first time since September that my weight has gone down instead of up. In september I gave up coffee and took up hot chocolate. I ate way more sugar than usual. It is also the month that soft drink (or soda) starts to go on special in readiness for Christmas and we were buying it. From September to the end of December I drank a lot of sugar in the form of hot chocolate and soft drinks. My weight went very slowly but very steadily up. I put on about 8kg in that time. Given that since I gave up sugar my weight has now started to come down, and it's 3kg down I think we can safely say that weight loss is due only to giving up the sugar.

I have actually been eating a lot more fat than ever before too. I've switched to high fat everything and I don't scrimp. And it's true folks, if you eat fat in your diet you will eat less. Fat triggers your brain to know that it has eaten and you feel it. If there's sugar in as well as the fat it seems to have the oposite effect and you need to eat more to feel full. Fat on its own is much better.

So, no change in exercise, increase fat intake, drop sugar = a 3kg loss. I think this no sugar gig is working.