Tuesday, November 16, 2010


I've just signed up for my second 10k run! Eeek! I don't know if I can do it. I mean, I know I have done it already and that I can DO a 10ker but it just doesn't feel like I can do it! I feel old and slow and slothy, not young and fast and lithe, like I want to feel!

I am running with two of my new running friends from my old gym. They are ladies in their early fifties and they are such an inspiration to me. Both of them are fantastic runners but one in particular is just a gun! Actually we call her 'Guns' because she's a 55yo gym junkie running chick and she just deserves that moniker lol.

Every Saturday or Sunday we all run together, at our own pace and then we have breakfast together. We feel we've earned it lol. Actually sometimes I think it's the thought of the breakfast that gets us out of bed in the morning!! lol.

So, I'm once again in training. I'm actually in week 2 of a 5 week bootcamp. I've done a bootcamp mission before and nothing, I mean NOTHING gets you fit like bootcamp does. Actually it was doing bootcamp that got me fit enough to do that first 10k so I'm glad it's here again!

I've been terribly sick these past few weeks, I had the flu, laryngitis and a secondary chest infection all at once. Oh and a double ear infection too. I didn't train at all for almost two weeks and when I came back in to it I could hardly move. I've gradually been getting back into training, getting better each day. On Sunday I ran about 4k, it was awful I could hardly breathe. Today I ran 5k and I felt fantastic. I did about 5min of stomach crunches afterwards and then a 1100m row. I'm gradually getting back on track :)

Saturday, November 6, 2010

More pics of the Tiger Cubs

Please excuse Jonah's grubby jacket! He'd been munching on something very tasty that day lol. He's still in size ones, tiny little bear. But, he's starting to grow a lot more now so hopefully he will have more career choices than just 'Jockey' lol

Pics as Promised :)

Here are some pics of the kids as promised. I don't have time to load them into photobucket first so you've just got the copy straight from my computer sorry lol. First one is Tiger Sam. How gorgeous is he!? Then Jonah, getting all grown up and gorgeous, then Sam again, then Jonah, then Luke lol. Gosh, I'm going to have to start using photobucket again lol.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010


Been a bit neglectful haven't I? I really do try and get back here but seriously, any spare time I have is just eaten away these days. Plus, this blog will soon be moving. I'm finding it too distracting having two blogs going. Given I don't have time to look after one, having two means they're both neglected. So, watch this space for the new address TBA!

Anyhoo, what's been happening here?


Since my last post we have had another of our darling boys diagnosed on the Autism spectrum. It was only after Jonah's diagnosis that I started to wonder whether some of the quirky things that Sam was doing might actually be autism. We fronted up to the developmental paediatrician and got the go ahead to have him formally assessed. What we saw surprised us.

Sam has a very high general knowlege IQ. He was tested at 4yrs 8m, the test hits the ceiling at 7yrs 3m...he got to the end of the test and there was nowhere else to go so we really don't know how high his IQ actually is. However when the speech assessment was done he failed in the areas of pragmatic language skills. This bought his IQ down to 108, still very good but if not for the language deficits and the fact he takes everything literally, his score (apparently) would have been 120+. They want to test him again in two years, after he has had some speech therapy to see how he goes.

So, our gorgeous Sam has been given the official diagnosis of high functioning autism (HFA) and now all of those quirks and crazy things he did make sense! Followers of my old blog will remember posts titled 'Cranky little genius', all dedicated to Sam. He showed amazing brightness from an early age but he just never had any common sense lol. Yep, typical HFA!

He's doing well though. He's seeing a great psych and a speech pathologist and he's going great. He will be starting prep next year and is loving the transition to his new school. We didn't apply for an aid because his IQ was too high to get funding.

Now to Jonah. What a little superstar. He's going great at the learning centre and they have done some amazing work with him. He now has a total of 13 words. This is up from none back in March. He doesn't say them all the time and he won't say them on command but we do hear them and that's enough for us.

He is also showing some fantastic play skills, points all the time (he never used to point at all), plays with his toys appropriately, loves his 'dolly' and pushes her in the pram all day, brings me my shoes, loves to sing (although every word is 'Ga ga ga') and he has a great singing voice! He actually keeps in tune really well so although he can't say the words we know the song because we can hear the tune lol.

He's still little but is growing. He's 2yrs 4m and is still wearing size one in pants but has snuck into some size 2 tops even though they're still a little big. His heath has settled a lot and his digestive issues seem to be correcting themselves. We still see a gastroenterologist but he seems to be going well.

His main area of concern is his severe language delay. Some of his words are just sounds but we know what he is trying to say. For example 'Ahya' means 'I want food or water'. It's a spin off from 'nana' which he leaned to say when he was going thgough his 'I will eat nothing but bananas' phase lol. So now when he says 'Ahya' we know it's food or water he wants.

He had his first full time week at the learning centre last week and he coped really well. For those who don't know, the learning centre is using the Early Start Denver Model (ESDM) with Jonah and it's just amazing how well he is doing and in such a short space of time. I notice so many changes in the other kids there too.

Luke is just fantastic. He is nearing the end of his first year of prep and is already reading, spelling and doing maths at grade 2 level. It's not just a Mummy brag but he is at the top of his class. He and a little girl have surprised us all with how well they are doing. He's such a gorgeous kid, very sensitive but he loves his footy! LOL.

Me? Well, I am still a gym junkie. I actually have two gym memberships now, how sad is that?! LOL and I am very very proud to say I have recently completed my first ever 10k run! I did it in a great time (for me lol) and am now training for another 10ker in 5 weeks time, a 15k in April and the bog half marathon next year. Maybe, just maybe....a marathon after that!

I will hit send on this now before Jonah wakes and destroys it. Then I will put up some pics!

Sunday, August 1, 2010


Sometimes I just don't update my blog because it just seems that my life is so mundane at the moment and there's just not a lot to say! I'm busier than ever but I just can't think of what I'm actually doing that would be worth writing in here lol.

Jonah is at the new learning centre now. They do the Early Start Denver Method there (ESDM) but there's more about that in his blog. I now spend anywhere from 2-4 hours a day driving him too and from the centre. It's a lot of driving time but compared to the help he's getting I really don't care.

On Tuesday we're having Sam assessed for Aspergers syndrome. I hadn't given a single thought that he might have ASD but since having Jonah diagnosed with autism, so much falls into place for Sam. He's always gone to the beat of his own drum but lately we've noticed that his social skills just aren't where they should be. He's a smart kid, very smart but he doesn't get social queues and social norms like he should. So, off to the paed we go to see what the deal is there!

Luke is just going great guns at school. Honestly, I know parents like to brag but we just thought he was average until we had his parent teacher night. Turns out he's working at almost grade two level in English and Maths! He's only in prep so he's at least a year and a half ahead of where he should be. The school is very accomodating and gives him work and homework according to his abilities. We're so proud of him. He's also become such a social butterfly too which, given he had such a bad anxiety disorder, is just amazing!

Darling Husband and I are plodding along. We both hit the gym hard these days and it really does help difuse tension and anxiety in both of us. I am doing boot camp now and will be at that six days a week for 5 weeks. Then it's straight into a new 12 week fitness challenge. No alcohol or bad food until Christmas now!!

How will I ever survive??!!

Sunday, July 25, 2010

He Won!

Remember the 12 week challenge? The one Darling Husband and I entered? The fitness and lifestyle change challenge? Well, last Friday night we had the 'Night of Champions' which is the night when all of the 100 entrants and their partners get together and the winner of each club are announced as well as the 'Grand Champion'. We thought that Darling Husband might be a contender for club champion as he did extremely well but when all of the club champions were announced and Darling Husbands name wasn't mentioned we weren't dissapointed as they were all such deserving winners.

But then came time to announce the Grand Champion. Now, both Darling Husband and I thought that the Grand Champion (GC) was chosen from the winning club champions so we were really interested in seeing if our club champion made the grade but weren't expecting it to be either of us so weren't paying as much attention as we probably should have been.

At the start of these challenges, as an entrant you have to write a testimony, a reason why you're doing this challenge and what you think you will gain from it. At the end of the challenge you write another testimony as to how you've changed since embarking on the challenge. Both testimonies are read out as the grand champion is revealed. This is where it gets funny.

They start reading out the testimony..

Speaker: "I am the Father of five children.."

Darling Husband:" Oh hang on, this could be me!"

Me: "Shhh...I'm listening!"

Speaker: "I have a desk job and when I come home from work I sit on the couch..."

Darling Husband: "Umm, I really think this is my testimony."

Me: "SHHHHH! I can't hear what he's saying!"

Speaker: "Reads out the rest of the testimony."

Me (to Darling Husband): "Oh my goodness! I think that's you!"

Darling Husband: "Thats what I've been trying to tell you!"

And yes it was indeed my Darling champion Husband who took out the Grand Champion prize. I am so proud of him and even a week later we are both still in shock! We've both become health fanatics which is so far from where we both were only a year ago. It does get hard and old habits die hard but all in all I think we will be following this path forever now.

If I get game enough I'll put up some of our before and after pics. They're quite astounding!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Oh so much has happened!

Forgive me blogreaders for it has been 12 weeks since my last post :P Gosh, I just re read my last post and it was at the start of the challenge. Well that challenge finished on Saturday lol.

I am so happy with my results, I worked really hard every day and it shows. All up I lost 14.5kg in the 12 weeks and 76.5cm from my body. My body fat percentage is now 26% which is really not too bad for someone my age! I want to get it a bit lower but I'm actually in the 'normal' range for body fat percentage. W00t to me!

And the most exciting part, I did the fun run and I RAN THE WHOLE WAY!! 4.2ks, ran the lot, got it in 28m 38sec, and new PB for me :)

I have been training six days a week with a PT or group and I can now say that at the ripe old age of 42 I am a fit healthy female :) I still want to lose a few more kilos but can you believe I'm now a stock standard size 14? Yep! I am. That's a bit of a drop from someone who, a year ago was boardering on a size 20-22. Yikes!

Ohh and Darling Husband did extraordinarily well. He lost 17kg and 100cm from his body. Happy dance for him! You should see how fit he is now too. We're both gym junkies LOL

I now run regularly and do at least 30min or 4ks once a week plus other training. It's so good to not be so exhausted when I run. I love it, oh I still get tired and at the end of it I've had enough but I actually enjoy it now and I can do it.

Perseverence certainly pays off. Luckily I'm so stubborn :P

OK, that's it for me for now but I will be back regularly to post again soon. My computer broke and all I had was my iPhone which is too hard to blog with. I have a new computer now so I promise I'll be more regular :P

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Challenges Ahead.

On Monday I embark on another 12 week gym challenge. 12 weeks of hard training, food/alcohol depravation and lots of sweat and tears, hopefully no blood!

I have done one of these challenges before, I actually blogged about it last year. It was hard but I loved it and I got some great results. So now I am doing it all again and it starts on Monday. I will be training 6 days per week with three weight training days and three cardio training days. My PT wants me to have a rest from running and just maintain the level I am currently at. Six weeks in to the challenge we will reintroduce the running and ramp it up towards the end.

I don't think I will keep a separate blog for this challenge. I am having a hard enough time keeping up with this one and Jonah's autism blog. But I will put results in here as they come through.

Oh and I almost forgot the best part!!! Darling Husband is partaking in this event too! He has a different trainer to me but he's going to join in the challenge. It's a race between us now lol. We're both doing it for our health but we're mainly doing it for Jonah. We need to know that we can get through this, that we can rise above the pain and exhaustion and keep going. Because then we know, no matter what, we will always be able to keep going for Jonah.

Come join in the fun and cheer me on!

Me? In a fun run??

You'd better believe it! Next weekend I am participating in my first ever fun run! I started running a year ago and I sucked (still do) but I kept at it. Last year I was extremely unfit, overweight and suffering from type 2 diabetes. I had recently joined a gym and was slowly working my way back to life.

And I was doing ok. Slowly but surely I did ok. Running was hard and at first I couldn't do more than a single minute before having to stop. I have built up on that but I find it very hard as I still have no stamina. Even now, after a whole year (acutally less than but I'll explain) I can still only run for 15 minutes straight before having to stop. Yes, I'm running 15 times more than I was this time last year but most people I know who started running when I did have done their first 10k-er by now. I would just DIE!

In October last year I had a terrible case of shin splints and compartment syndrome which almost saw me in hospital having my legs sawed open to relive the pressure. I had run too much in one week with not enough rest and it was enough to see me out of running for 4 whole months. So really, I started running last year but I have only been running for 8 months, and only a trickle here and there.

Then 9 weeks ago I started a running programme designed by my personal trainer. There are ten of us doing the 10 week programe and we each have our own personal running plan drawn up. Everyone else who is in this has been running for ages, is fit, fast and experienced. They are all pushing out 8k runs a few times a week, Good on them I say!

But, little ol me is the oldest and slowest of the bunch but I am so happy with how I have done. We started from scratch at the start of the programe with me only running 20 seconds then walking for a mintute, run 20sec walk for a minute until 20 minutes had passed. We built this up each weak so, the next time I would run 30 seconds walk a minute, then run 45 sec, walk 1 min...then the walking part got shorter and shorter until yesterday when I did a full lap of our circuit in 15 minutes non stop. Huge, and I mean huge achievement for me. It means I am getting better and stronger and more effecient so I should be able to build on that further and keep getting better.

So, next week is my first fun run! It's a 4ker and I won't be able to do it non stop but I will be able to walk/run it and finish it. I'm not nervous because I have done this track before. I just want to beat my best time. I really am looking forward to it!

Wish me luck!!

Friday, March 26, 2010

Sugar Free. Easy as can be!

So, I am now about11 days sugar free and this has been a lot easier than last time. I don't think I had any real cravings or withdrawals this time. It's all been smooth sailing.

I had forgotten how much sugar affects my appetite. When I have sugar in my diet I eat so much more, I'm never really full and always find myself foraging for food lol. When I am off sugar I actually find times when I need to remind myself to eat. I eat so much less now, I can feel the food in my stomach and get full so much quicker and after much less food.

I still get cravings now and then for chocolate or cake but it's just a "Oh that would be nice," kind of craving and not a "Give it to me now or will kill you and step over your cold dead body to get to it!" kind of craving. There is a difference lol.

My darling little nephew is doing well. He has had his operation and is on the long road to recovery but he is in the best hands and is doing well. He will be in for about a month. BIL and SIL finally got to cuddle him yesterday.

Ok, just a quick post today. I went for a run this morning and I am starving!! Time to eat....sugar free of course :P

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

A week or so ago...

I was waiting to see if my baby has Autism. There has been an update on that here....


This is Jonah's blog which I want to keep separate from this one so please feel free to head on over there and have a look around :)

OK so, when I last posted I was also awating the birth of a brand new nephew, he was due in for days time. I am proud to say that baby Otis arrived yesterday and he is just gorgeous. Unforuntately Otis was born with a hole is his diaphragm and some of his internal organs have moved into his chest cavity. This was not picked up in the scan and was totally unexpected.

He's doing well, has been transfered to the childrens hospital and will have surgery tomorrow or the next day. He looks a lot like his cousin Luke when he was born and I can't help but want to pick up that boy and squish him good!!

Luke is loving school and is doing so much better than we expected! He has mastered all of his 100 magic words and is now well into the next set! They get 100 words divided up onto coloured sheets and learn each set before moving on to the next. It starts with the Golden words and he learned those two days after he got them. That was the pattern, every time he would get a new set of words he would know them all two days after. He's just hooting along!

Sam is not coping as well without Luke home but he's doing ok. Sam, the child whom I said God gave me because He couldn't handle him, has turned into the most quiet, placid, Angelic little boy. I cannot believe he is the same child lol. He is so quiet, sentitive and just so loving. He doesn't destroy the house any more, thankfully, and he is such a joy to be around.

I think God knew that there would be no Mummy left if he gave me Sam as he was and Jonah together! :P

Now, that sugar thing. I am thrilled to say I am still off the sugar and hope to be for a very long time. I just cannot cannot cannot eat it. It goes straight to my mid section and I can't shift it! Plus, it makes me feel downright awful. I sleep poorly, I can't concentrate, my skin goes terrible and I generaly feel lethargic and foggy headed when I am on sugar.

I am so happy to be off it again. I have also told people that I will not be joining them for dessert when we are out. My birthday was the last hoorah and that's it!

I am starting another 12 week challenge at my gym and have been doing a running programme for the past 7 weeks. I have made some great gains but I still need to shift some kilos so I don't feel like I'm running with a weight vest on when all I am wearing is a T shirt lol. I shall keep you all updated on that one!

OK, nuff from me.

Monday, March 15, 2010


Everything is just so hectic. I've pretty much fallen apart but I'm busily putting the pieces back together again. Looking back on the past month I'm quite suprised I got through it. I'm tired, fed up, worried, stressed, busy, uncertain and nothing will change in the near future. That in iteself is quite daunting.

Darling Husband and I have decided that we will do nothing, absolutely nothing that will cause any added stress to our family. We've been quite ruthless about accepting and declinging invitations to places and events that might cause added stress, even though they're meant to 'give us a break.'. People just don't understand that even dropping by for a catch up quick coffee or a catch up can be a stressful event these days. My home is my sanctuary right now and it's all I can do just to keep things running smoothly here. Having to entertain and accomodate visitors is just a bit beyond me at the moment. I know people thing 'but it's only us' and that they'll help themselvs to coffee etc but I'm just not comfortable plodding around in my pyjamas in front of guests and there are some days where I don't actually want to get out of my pyjamas!

I fell well and truly off the sugar free bandwagon, skinning my knees and my pride in the process. I've made a concious decision to get back on that wagon and that started today. I am much better when I am sugar free. Going back on it at least had the benefit of proving to me that I just can't eat it. I felt dreadful, my skin again turned horrid, the weight I lost came back on and my energy levels fell through the floor.

But I can't stay and wallow in self pity, it's too lonely here. I think I've had my sook and my scream and shout and now it's time to pick up, dust off and get moving. Thanks to anyone out there who is still following along this blog. I heart you muchly xxx

Giving up Sugar (again)

Day 1: Going well so far!!

Saturday, February 13, 2010


I slipped. I ate sugar, just a little bit but eat it I did. It's amazing how just one taste will get you back to craving it again.

We'd gone out and I hadn't planned my eating. I should know by now never to do this as I always end up in trouble. We've just been so busy with Jonah and I have again put myself last. I had eaten a really good breakfast (vegetable omelete) but suddenly it was 4.30pm and I was getting dizzy. I hadn't eaten another thing ALL DAY! That is so unlike me, I am a firm believer in six small meals a day and I usually only miss one, if any.

So here I was in Coles, about to crash into a hypo. I felt that familiar disorientation feeling and started to sweat profusely. Classic hypo symptoms. What I needed was sugar and now. Problem when you are having a hypo is that your brain is starved of sugar so you don't generally make wise decisions. This was no exception!

I went to the lolly aisle and grabbed chocolate. Chocolate is full of sugar but it's medium GI so it doesn't get into your blood stream fast enough. I should have gone for the jelly beans.

The chocolate didn't work fast enough and I was getting worse. At least my brain had enough sense to go for the next best thing after jelly beans, juice! I grabbed a large breakfast juice and drank it without coming up for air. I knew now that even though I felt like death was fast on my badk, I'd had adequate sugar and I didn't need any more. The craving for a cherry ripe was really hard to thwart lol.

The juice had given me an immediate sugar hit so after about ten minutes I started to feel much better. The chocolate held me up until I was able to get home and cook dinner. Unfortaintely my body had had sugar and it liked what it saw!

The next day the cravings were strong. I really wanted more. I tried to justify it that I could have just a little bit but I knew in my head that it was the wrong thing to do. Come night time I was almost climbing the walls again. I had no fruit in the house exept for some frozen berries so I couldn't even get a healthy fructose hit. I was within seconds of sending Darling Husband out to get me some chocolate...

Then I remembered, I DID have some fruit in the house...banana! I chopped some up, mixed it with some weet bix and it was bliss! The perfect sugar hit without feeding teh addiction. It worked, the cravings were gone and I was back on track.

I have also had my first sugarless coffee. I'd given up coffee back in September in a bid to cut down my sugar intake. I could not drink coffee without sugar and for those who know me, using any kind of sweetner is never going to happen! So I just had to stop drinking coffee altogether. I'd tried cutting down and just having one sugar but I hated it, it just wasn't worth drinking the coffee when I didn't enjoy it.

So, I gave it up. I had two coffee's over Christmas but didn't enjoy them without the sugar. Yesterday I had a coffee with no sugar and I realy enjoyed it! I'd planned to try it with glucose but I forgot to take it with me. I am still shocked. I never ever thought I could enjoy a coffee with no sugar. It just goes to show how much I depended on the taste of sugar to make things palatable. Now that I'm not longer relying on the taste I can enjoy foods for their own flavour, not the mask that sugar coats them with.

Kicking the Wolf.

The wolf came to see me in a dream about two weeks ago. He was preceeded by a gunman who was chasing me through the house, only one step behind me as I ran for my life.

The gunman was after me, the wolf was stalking Jonah.

Kicking the Wolf.

Friday, February 12, 2010


It's over, the MRI is done and again we wait. We also had some chromosome tests and more blood work done while he was under the general anaesthetic. Our appointment was for 11.30am with admission at 11.00am. We arrived half an hour early and went straight through admissions and into the MRI rooms. Jonah was under the anaesthetic by 11.15am, much sooner than I had anticipated!

He had to fast for 6 hours prior to the procedure so this morning when he woke at 3am I kept him awake. We played for an hour and I turned on the TV and all the lights so he'd think it was morning time. At 4am I fed him a bowl of weetbix and mashed banana and kept getting him to drink water. The poor little thing was wondering why I was chasing him around trying to shovel food into him LOL.

At 5.20am he fell asleep in my arms after having a big breastfeed. He was so full he could harly move lol. When he woke again just before 9am I knew he woudln't be starving. We headed off to the hospital at 10am, stopping for petrol along the way to drag out the time. The waiting room had these amazing panels on the walls that had all manner of things to flip turn and spin. Jonah loved it!!!

We're home. He's safe and fast asleep in my bed. I am off to snuggle up to him soon. I will be starting another blog with this journey in it. I want to keep is separate from our general blog because we're so new into this journey I don't want it to completely take over and I need to keep references for later on as he progresses through his surgery.

Keep an eye out for the new home!!

Thursday, February 11, 2010


Tomorrow morning Jonah has his MRI. They are looking for some conditions that mimic autism and/or cause the same symptoms but also have other componants. His EEG is booked for March 12, so by the time we get back to the developmental paed on March 18 we will have our answers.

It's moving fast. For that I am grateful, we're not left languishing in a system we can't control. But I'm scared too. It feels like it's all getting out of control, going too fast.

I'm finding it hard to look at Jonah and remember what it was like to not know this, to not look at him and see Jonah and autism together. I want to go back a few weeks ago where I looked at him and saw only Jonah. I've already forgotten what that's like.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

So hard to say.

I hate that I have to do this post. I have not wanted to say anything until we were sure and until we had some answers but today any hope that it was all a bad dream were dashed.

Jonah has been gradually regressing and losing his ability to comminucate. Today he was given the preliminary diagnosis of Autism.

We saw our regular paediatrician on Monday. He evaluated Jonah and put his cognitive, social/emotional and fine motor skills as that of about an 8 month old. He sent us to an emergency appointment with a developmental paediatrician. That appointment was today. The Dev Pead is certain Jonah has autism. She said she never gives the diagnosis on the first visit because she needs to rule out other causes but if she were to go by what she saw today, he'd definitely get a positive diagnosis.

She has booked Jonah in for an MRI, en EEG and numerous blood tests. If they are clear then we get the positive diagnosis of autism because there is nothing else causing the regression and the other traits he has. If they are not clear then we're in serious trouble. These tests are to rule out 'more sinister' conditions. Unfortunately now, Autism is the good outcome, the best one we can hope for.

My baby has autism
My child is autistic
I have an autistic child
My son has autism
Jonah is autistic
Jonah has autism

Whatever way I say it, it just doesn't sound like the words are coming from me, or that I'm talking about MY child. Not my child. My child isn't autistic, he doesn't have autism.

I just cannot get my head around this.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

The Blogies. I haz one.

I have been awarded the most awesome of bloggy awards..."The Blogie".

And as you can see for your very own eyes, it truly is an awesome sight.

And it's MINE! (But I must pass it on)

I was awarded this most wonderful of blog awards by the very funny, clever and awesome Jen over at Jemikaan (<-- If you click that Jemikaan dowhacky there it will take you to her blog!)

In accepting this award I must thank those that have bought me here. Blogging is something I love doing and it still astounds me every day that some of you out there actually drop in to read this crap that I dribble. I've lost a lot of followers since blogger sliced and diced my old fiveby40 blog into nothingness but it's good to see you all trickling back in, and not to mention the new faces too!

I want to pass this Blogie on to special folk out ther in Blogland. I do love each and every blog that I follow but there are some I tend to click on a little more than others and I think it's because these particular people really do 'get' me. But I do love youz all :D

Kakka She's just such a darling heart. I always know she's out there reading and being so unbelieveably supportive of me. She's been watching my journey of Jonah's pregnancy, the aftermath, the fitby41 blog and even now she's still there cheering me on. She has an awesome blog that is just straight from the heart. I always feel so calm after popping in there for a read. It's like going into a quiet room for some time out lol. So Karen, please accept this Blogie as a token of my thanks.

Danni Over at 'Ramblings of a Mama' has a great versatile blog, always interesting and funny. Danni and I have known each other since Paige and Sam were babies and we keep trying to catch up but it just never happens! This year, Danni....this year!!!

And although there are at least 20 people I want to pass this on to, I am just going to pick one more....

Sunny Side Up .Kirrily's blog. Just go there, read a few posts, and you'll know why.

So you three...step up and grab your Blogie!!

My Pet Peeve


This stuff ^^ it's truly horrid. How any parent can justify giving it to their child is beyond me. Even before I became a fructophope I still knew Nutella was not a food any child (or adult for that matter) should ever be eating. People, it's a jar of sugar and fat. Before you even see a hazelnut you have to get past 85% sugar and fat. That's right, there is almost 55% sugar in that jar and 30% fat, that's almost 85% sugar and fat alone.

It's not food, it's poison dressed up as a chocolate spread.

The first month.

So the first month of being sugar free is over. I'm over the worst of the cravings but I do get the 'urge' now and then. I think it was be like nicotine. When you give up nicotine you get over the cravings but the desire for it does come back now and then. You know it's not strong enough to make you succumb but it still pops up.

That's the way it is with sugar. Usually it's a visual trigger. We were shopping one day and I walked past the biscuit aisle. Biscuit aisles have Tim Tams in them. When I saw them I really wanted to eat one but I didn't crave it. It just would have been nice. Walking away was easy and as soon as I was out of that aisle I'd forgotten all about them.

Official weigh in has me three kilos lighter. It's not a huge amount but it is the first time since September that my weight has gone down instead of up. In september I gave up coffee and took up hot chocolate. I ate way more sugar than usual. It is also the month that soft drink (or soda) starts to go on special in readiness for Christmas and we were buying it. From September to the end of December I drank a lot of sugar in the form of hot chocolate and soft drinks. My weight went very slowly but very steadily up. I put on about 8kg in that time. Given that since I gave up sugar my weight has now started to come down, and it's 3kg down I think we can safely say that weight loss is due only to giving up the sugar.

I have actually been eating a lot more fat than ever before too. I've switched to high fat everything and I don't scrimp. And it's true folks, if you eat fat in your diet you will eat less. Fat triggers your brain to know that it has eaten and you feel it. If there's sugar in as well as the fat it seems to have the oposite effect and you need to eat more to feel full. Fat on its own is much better.

So, no change in exercise, increase fat intake, drop sugar = a 3kg loss. I think this no sugar gig is working.

Saturday, January 30, 2010


He is big like little baby dinosaur!! Not official but I did a pretty decent weigh and measure on him yesterday and it seems he's well and truly on the charts! He's about 15th centile for height and 20th% for weight. That's a giant (pardon the pun) leap for a tot who until recently didn't even scrape into the 3rd percentile for height and was barely touching the 10th for weight.

He's growing!!

Developmentally he's quite far behind. In fact if I check him against the DSM IV he'd get a diagnosis of ASD but I just don't think that's our issue. His gross motor skills seem fine but he staggers a lot, like he has no balance and he can't run yet but I'm not sure at what age that usually comes. But he can climb and conquer any piece of furniture in the house! He has hyperacusis (Over sensitive hearing) which Luke also suffers from. It's a pain, there are noises everywhere and they all make him scream in fear.

Language, both receptive and expressive are far behind. He doesn't talk, at all, and he doesn't seem to understand instructions or much of what we are saying to him. He can't do any "Show me your foot/eyes/nose," etc and can't follow simple instructions like, "Go and get your shoes," or, "Where is the book?" But he does love it when I sing to him or when Darling Husband plays guitar. It seems music is his thing.

His fine motor skills are also very far behind. He still hasn't developed a pincer grip, can't self feed, has trouble drinking even from a sippy cup and refuses to hold a pencil or any kind of writing implement.

We have a stack of tests and specialist appointments coming up in the next three weeks. I have lost all hope that they'll ever find what's wrong with him but we will definitely be needing early intervention so I will go along and get the appropriate paper work filled out.

Stay tuned!!

(Woops, sorry bout the sideways pic!)

Fail to plan...plan to fail.

Yesterday was an epic fail. I failed to notice that we'd run out of eggs. Eggs are a staple part of my breakfast. Every morning I start the day with an egg and vegetable omelete. The eggs are a great source of protein and the vegetables give me the carbs I need for energy.

Yesterday morning, no eggs. So what did I do?? I thought, "Oh it's ok, I'll just have toast, I haven't had any processed carbs in a while so it will be ok. So I had toast and vegemite for breakfast. Fail!

Within two hours I was starving. We'd gone to Costco ( to stock up on eggs!) and whilst there we bought a tray of croissants. Famished, I just ate one, but it wasn't enough and then I was literally craving another one. So I ate another one and it was good! The high energy carbs from the bread had hit my blood steam like a sugar fountain and the cravings came back in full swing.

Seriously, I felt out of control. Two hours later I was again famished. I ate two more. The croissants had sugar as one of their ingredients so I was feeding the addiction. I knew it but I didn't want to stop it. It was kind of like all those times when I gave up smoking, a few weeks after giving up I'd have..just one...just one and then I won't have any more! Of course until that last time I gave up, I always did have more.

It was the same with the croissants. By days end I'd eaten four of them! They tasted bloody nice too! LOL. Sure they weren't as sugar laden as a cake but they didn't need to be. They had sugar in them and that's all that mattered. That's why I didn't feel full after eating them and that's why I still wanted more food even though I had already eaten.

This morning I woke feeling lile I had a hangover. I'm not kidding. I had the worst headache, my face was all red and puffy, I was lethargic and felt really unwell. Luckily I had eggs in the house again so I quickly whipped up some eggs, spinach and mushrooms before the temptation to eat bread came over me again.

Bread isn't the devil and I'm not suggesting it is, but for me it's a precursor to a carb overload so it's best I just don't eat it. It's kind of like an ex smoker sitting in a room full of smokers, trying not to want one. Bread is my smoking buddy.

Today has been ok. I'm tired but that can be blamed on a myriad for things. Good lesson learned though. I'm just not strong enough yet to allow any high energy carbs into my system.

I did have the most awesome blueberry smoothy for lunch though!!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Bandwagon. I haz one.

Ever since giving up sugar I've noticed a curiosity amongst friends and aquaintences. Since year dot we've all been 'giving up fat and taking up exercise', so giving up sugar seems to be something new. Well it is new.

Everyone at the gym knows I'm doing it as I have had a lot of support from two of the trainers there who have been fructophobes for some time now. Plastering it all over my facebook page has also sent the message loud and clear that this is my latest bandwagon. And it appears I am collecting a few passengers along the way.

The curiosity of people who want to know more about giving up sugar has really surprised me. I thought I'd have to be explaining myself all the way, defending my actions so to speak but it's been quite the oposite. People are often asking me how I'm going, why am I doing it, what exactly am I changing to give up sugar, is it hard, do I think they could do it too, etc. The questions are all the same but the most striking thing has been the amount of people who say to me, "But I don't eat a lot of sugar."

Yes you do. You just don't know it.

When I give some examples of where the hidden sugar may be in their diet they stand mouth agape and suddenly want a seat on the bandwagon. Of course I happy help them aboard and further ear bash them until the probably wish I hadn't lol.

Sugar is everywhere and it doesn't always taste sweet. It's hidden in so many foods, especially low fat foods, they're laced with it to make them more palatable. You often have to be specifically looking for sugar to find it.

One of sugars most evil traits is that it inhibits your appetite suppressing hormone Leptin, so your brain doesn't even realise it's eaten anything. And, it's addictive which is why so many people find it so hard to stop at one Tim Tam and why so many always feel hungry when they've eaten an adequate amount of calories.

Your brain simply doesn't register that it's eaten anything when you eat a high sugar meal. And remember, it doesn't have to be a sweet tasting meal to be a sugar laden meal.

So in short, you eat something high in sugar, your brain doesn't recognise you've eaten, you're still feeling hungry, you eat more, you end up eating twice as much as you need in order to feel satiated, you gain weight.

So what do you do next? You go on a low fat diet of course! You start eating low fat this and low fat that, all of it laced with sugar...and you wonder why you can't lose any weight.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

At The End

I can finally say I am at the end of the sugar withdrawal stage. I haven't had any cravings for days now and I am no longer having any symptoms of withdrawal. All I am doing now is feeling better and better each day. I'm also kicking myself as to why I didn't do this before. Well at least I won't be lamenting when I'm 51 that I didn't start it when I was 41 lol.

My mood is now one of the biggest changes I can notice. I have so much more patience, I'm awake, and I mean really wide awake. I can concentrate so much better, the head fog has gone. I seem to be making more clearer and rational decisions. Not that I was running around with wild abandon putting everyone in jeopardy with crazy decisions but I no longer struggle with decision making. Sometimes even deciding what to wear or what to have for dinner was a big deal, now I can just make the decision straight away and it's done.

I seem to want to do things now whereas before it was often a struggle to do anything. I thought I was just in a rut but it's not. I realised that I'm now looking for challenges, things to get my brain working. It's like my brain has finally woken up fully after years of being half asleep.

I am picking up a 5kg bag of glucose tomorrow and will start cooking some of the fantastic fructose free recipes I've found. The chocolate gelati looks fantastic! I also want to try a black forest cake!

Another very noticible difference (and there is no way this could just be a coincidence), since being taken off the high fructose yoghurts, Jonah is now sleeping a minimum of 90 minutes during the day! He sleeps for between 90 minutes and 2 hours. This is a HUGE chance for him. This is the baby who never slept for more than 20 minutes, and to get an hour out of him was an absolute miracle. It happened but it was very rare.

My skin is looking so much better. It's getting some brightness back to it and the browning from the insulin resistance is fading even more. All in all, the changes are very apparent and they are very very good!

I am so so glad I did this.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

You should see my house right now...

Because it's feral!

Gastro came to play at our house this weekend and with so many people living here, you can imagine the carnage. Darling Husband and I took turns nursing children, vomiting and cleaning up all maner of bodily fluids. sometimes it was a mystery as to what belonged to who. The one good thing though, Darling Husband was supposed to be in New Zealand this morning but because of some uncertainty with with JDude's tests, he didn't go, thus, he didn't leave me all alone with three spewing children hooray!

Today is Sunday and we're all feeling better. Again, hooray.

Yesterday was Seb's birthday (Quick recap for those of you only recently playing from home, Seb is from Ethiopa and has been living with us for almost 3 years now), I made her a chocolate cake, covered it in pink icing and Smarties and as is usual, she blushed. We also bought her some gifts which she loved. Honestly, I swear she is the hardest person to buy for so I was glad that she really loved her presents :)

In Ethiopia they don't celebrate birthdays like we do. It's acknowleged but you don't get presents and birthday cake. At best you might get your favorite bread baked for you and you might get some clothes if your parents have money but that's about it. So, when it's Seb's birthday and we celebrate it, she doesn't really know what to do, say, or where to look LOL. Each and every time I can't help but laugh, I've never seen a dark skinned person blush before I met Seb lol.

And yes I did say that I made her a chocolate cake, and no I didn't eat any of it. I had run out of glucose powder so had to use caster sugar. That meant I just couldn't eat any of it so I simply didn't. And to be honest, it really wasn't that hard. Half of the cake is still sitting in the fridge. It will probably get thrown out before it gets finished. That never used to happen in this house!

It's day 22 of no sugar and I can honestly say I'm now feeling no withdrawal symptoms at all. I don't crave it any more, I'm not having my afternoon slumps and I no longer have that foggy, headachy feeling. It's over, done and dusted.

Some people have asked me if I intend to stay off sugar for life or if I will soon begin to have 'just little bits', for a 'treat'. The answer is yes and no. Yes I will be staying off it for life and no I will not be having any of it for a treat.

Sugar to me is like smoking. I was addicted to nicotine and sugar. Both were ruining my health and I had to give them both up. To have a little bit of sugar for a treat now is exactly the same to me as having a 'puff of a cigarette' for a treat. Seriously, who would do that?

I do acknowlege though that it took me many times to fully give up smoking. Twice I gave up for two years, only to fall off the wagon again. Many times I gave up for 4-6 months, again to start up. Actually in the last ten years that I smoked I was off them more than I was on them. It may well be the same with sugar. I may fall off this bandwagon but I promise myself that I will do all I can not to fall off and to clamber aboard quick smart should I find those wagon wheels about to barrel over me!

There are two oposites about sugar v's nicotine though. With nocotine you're a social outcast if you partake yet with sugar you're a sociall outcast if you don't! It's hard celebrating birthdays, when you lovingly make someone a cake, present it to them and then decline a slice. It's hard going to people's houses for dinner, you have to pre arrange no dessert so the host doesn't go to too much trouble all for nothing. Restaurants are hard, the sauces almost always have sugar in them. Many places will cater for allergies, for gluten intolerance but for the sugar addicted diner? No dice. Yes, I could order off the diabetic menu, if there was one but that's as rare as my kids having a clean room for more than a nonosecond.

On Feb 2nd it will have been a calendar month since I gave up sugar. On that day I will weigh myself and see if there has been any weight loss. I don't expect big numbers, I ate an orchard full of fruit every day plus anything that wasn't nailed down during the wost of the withdrawals, and I chugged down a lot of glucose so
the scales might not go my way.

It doesn't matter. I know that eventually, one day they will. All that matters for now is that I have achieved another goal that I set out to do. I have given up sugar and I am over the withdrawals.

I hearby declare.....

That Skipper is awesome. Yes indeedly, totally awesome, just as awsome as her awesomeness manly man, Daz.

Why do you ask are they so totally awesome?!?! They found all of my old blog posts and now I have them back!!

These folks ^^^ choc full of awesomesauce, the pair of them <3 <3 <3

Can't thank you both enough. MWAH!!


Thursday, January 21, 2010

Gah!! Can somebody help me? Please?!?!?

Look What I Found!!!

It's the headlines of all 250+ of my old blog posts but I can't get to them!!

I've emailed blogger.com and Google till I'm blue in the fingers but no one is responding to me. Does anyone know how I can get my old blog unlocked?? It will take me years to find all of the cached entries because I can't find them in one hit (unless someone know's how I can?

Is there anything I can do to get it back??


There was an old woman..

Who stood behind me in Big W and proceded to tell me her life story. She was 87, it was a long story lol. She saw me wrangling my three youngest as we waited in a line that dwarfed the Great Wall of China. She told me that she had four sons, I told her I had five, she told me I must be very strong because God only gave sons to very strong women, so to get five of them meant that I was in the running to rip Cratos' title right out from under him. I told her that sometimes I thought God had a really sick sense of humour.

Then I told her what I really thought of having five boys. She started glancing at security and backing away slowly. (<--That was actually a Scrubs moment. It didn't really happen)

She was a lovely old Dear. She told me she had buried her son last year, he was 67 when he died. I thought of how odd it would be to die at age 67 and have your Mother attend your funeral. Not that you'd know, you'd be dead of course, but still, it would be strange. Then she told me that she raised her great grand daughter who was 20 now and had pretty much run off to join the circus. She said she had to raise her great grand daughter from birth because the childs Mother was '"Nothing but a crack whore bitch." LOL I amost choked. She did say that in a whisper that only her and I could hear but she still shocked me with her language!

Next she showed me what she was purchasing. Two nice new pairs of undies. Big ones! "But Oh they're really confortable!" she said LOL. She had one black pair and one white pair. I was about to blurt out, "Oh yeah, gotta love the big Granny undies!" but then I remembered who I was talking to and just gave her a smile and a nod. She held them up and then shoved them in my face so I could get a REALLY good look at them. I wasn't sure what she wanted, maybe a score out of ten? But I just admired her new knickers as much as one can without bursting into laughter and handed them back to her.

Then she held my hand and started patting it which she continued to do the whole time I was talking to her LOL. She told me that the shirt she was wearing came from an OP shop, and that there really was nothing wrong with OP shopping you know, "You can get so many bargains there! Look at my pants, they're from the OP shop too. You'd never be able to tell unless I told you first." I told her I completely agreed and that I thought she looked lovely.

After about 73 days we finally reached the end of the line. By this stage my boys had grown fur and a long tail and were wildly climbing anything stupid enough to remain still so I said goodbye and made a hasty retreat to the check out. I saw her as she left the store. She was with a very elderly gentleman, her Husband I assume, unless she was having an affair. They were standing in front of each other, smiling... both admiring the new nickers that she was holding up.

I only hope I'm as spritely and talkative when I'm 87 as she was, and that my day can still be brightened just by purchasing two new pairs of extra large grundies. One black, one white.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Fruit Free Friday!!

Yes I know today is only Thursday but I wanted to mention that tomorrow will be my first fruit free day since giving up fructose Woohoo!! I had been relying heavily on fruit to get me through the fructose withdrawals but in the past two to three days I've happily not needed any fruit even though I have eaten some. Yesterday I ate it because I had left over fruit salad from the day before and today I ate it because I had a mango in the fridge that either needed to be eaten today or thrown out tomorrow. And we all know that chucking out a mango is sacrilege!!

Today I have not had any glucose and I'm totally fine, no withdrawal symptoms at all and I feel great. I did have a horrid nights sleep last night so I'm suprised I feel as good as I do today.

I also wanted to note another change. Everything is salty! Not only are things tasting much sweeter now, they are also tasting salty. I mean salty foods of couse, my apples aren't salty lol. Savoury foods are much saltier tasting than before and I have found that for the past few nights I haven't added any extra salt to my meals. I eat a vegetable omelete pretty much every morning for breakfast and I always add some crushed green olives to give it a salty flavor. For the past few days it's been too much, almost getting too salty, and I've noticed it in other foods too.

My need for tea drinking has all but stopped. I love a hot drink with my breakfast but apart from that I don't seem to be looking for it any more.

ok, Jonah has just wandered out of the toilet with wet hands...ewww! Signing off now.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Day 18. The best day yet.

Sorry to my regular blog readers who are not interested in this latest bandwagon I have clambered aboard lol. But you should all know by now how obsessed I get when I am on to a good thing!!

Today has by far been my best since giving up sugar. As I mentioned before, to get though the withdrawals I ate a lot of fruit and chugged down more glucose than oxygen at times but, you do what you have to to get through the worst of it. I actually noticed more improvement yesterday which has continued on to today.

Today I'm finally awake. The 20+ years of head fog I have been carrying around seems to have lifed and I feel like I have more energy than ever in my life. That's saying something considering I have three small boisterous and very messy children to run around after but I really do feel alive.

And I can taste again! This has been one of the biggest things I've noticed since I went sugar free, everything tastes so much sweeter. As I mentioned before, I have been having glugose powder in places where I'd normally have sugar but last night I just felt like I didn't really need that any more. So, today I tried tea with no glucose in it, and I kid you not I could swear it was still in there. I can taste the sweetness in the dash of milk I put in it and that's enough to satisfy the taste buds.

For those who know me, you'd understand what huge deal this is. Two sugars, every single time, tea or coffee it HAD to have two sugars in it or it just wasn't worth drinking. I tried cutting down to one and a half but it just didn't work. It tasted wrong unless it was spiked with the two sugars. If there was no sugar around I simply didn't drink it. To be able to have tea now with no sugar really is just phenomenal for me.

This morning I again tasted Jonah's Weet bix and mashed banana, just to see, and again it tasted very sweet, even sweeter than when I tasted it the other day. Those of you out there feeling sorry for your tots who are munching on bland farex or weetbix, cry no more! To them the stuff is as sweet as if it had been spiked with buckets of sugar.

Again the satiety feeling I get after eating kicks in so much quicker than before. I just ate a tuna salad and drank a glass of water and I'm sitting down because I'm literally too stuffed to move. The only times I felt like that was when I was at an all you can eat buffet where I'd eat the equivalent of two main meals and three desserts before I'd feel 'stuffed'.

I also made a concious effort today not to eat too much fruit. I am happy to have 2-3 pieces a day, preferably only two but I had been eating up to 8 pieces a day. I'd prefer to get most of my caloric intake from vegetables and protien rather than so much fruit.

I'm so interested in food these days. Not just food in front of me, food at the super market etc, I mean food as a fuel and how its nutrients work for and against us. I'd love to look into it more (study it) but there is so much mis information out there so I wouldn't know whether what I was being taught was credible or utter crap. These days I'm relying on sources who have the experience to back up their claims, not just from some skinny cow who wrote a book.

It just makes so much sense.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Sweet Surrender.

So, this no sugar gig. I thought I would write a bit about how it's all going but be warned, I am posting on about 2 hours sleep in the past 48 hours so forgive me if I start speaking in tongues. I should add for those who haven't seen the link I posted, it's fructose I'm giving up here. Fructose is one half of table sugar, the evil half and it's added to almost everything we eat. It can only be digested by the liver and is about as poison to you as alcohol is. So, when I say I'm giving up sugar, I actually mean fructose.

First of all I want to talk a bit about the symptoms of sugar withdrawal that I experienced. Even on the first morning, when I didn't have my usual hot beverage with its 2 heaped sugars I could feel the withdrawal setting in. I was dizzy, light headed and felt like you do when you've inhaled too much oxygen, kind of like when you've blown up a dozen balloons.

Day 2-4 were ok and I just had to remember that I wasn't eating sugar any more. I had to make a birthday cake for my 4yo (see totally awesome spidercake from previous entry :D) and I lost count of how many times I instinctively went to taste the batter and the icing mix. Being off sugar means just that, you're off it, no taste testing, nothing at all! So, I pretty much went through hell on these days. My symptoms were;

Extreme lethargy
Brain fog
Mild depression
Mild anxiety

Now, I didn't give up all sugar, only fructose so when the cravings hit hard I had glucose, mostly in tea. Glucose is a sugar that can be easily digested. My enemey here was fructose which is half of table sugar, glucose being the other half. Problem is, almost everything is sweetened with table sugar and/or fructose. It really does pay to watch that link I provided in my last post to get a better understanding of what I'm banging on about here lol.

When the cravings were at their very worst I ate fruit, lots and lots of fruit, particularly nectarines and peaches (If you're going to give up sugar do it now while these babies are still in season!). My worst time was in the afternoon, which is when the symptoms seemed to hit ten fold so this is when I consumed most of the fruit. I also drank tea with glucose instead of table sugar. Now, glucose is not as sweet tasting as table sugar so you do need quite a bit of it but it's harmless and much easier to cut down on once the cravings are gone.

Day four to about day ten I can only describe as pure hell. I actually don't remember a lot of it thank God but I presume that's because my brain was so shitty at me for giving up its beloved sugar that it partially shut down. During the worst of it I was eating 6-8 pieces of fruit a day and drinking anywhere up to 6 cups of tea. It was the only thing that got me through the cravings. It just goes to show how addictive sugar is. Problem is, we never know we're addicted because it's in so many things that we're eating it every day and are unaware we're doing it. It's not until we give it up that we begin to feel the effects of sugar withdrawal.

Day 11 came around and I realised the fog had lifted. I was no longer craving the sweet stuff and my afternoon slump never happened. I could see the light at the end of the tunnel. Day 12, again I crashed and it felt just as bad as before. I knew though that like any other addiction my brain was just screaming out for a fix but that it would soon give up once it realised no fix was coming. Day 13 and 14, again, great days and on day 15 I realised I hadn't eaten a piece of fruit all day. I was now over the worst of it. And thank GOD for that!

I remember one day I was craving chocolate, really really badly. I wasn't about to eat any, I didn't actually have any to eat, but I really wanted some. So, I improvised and made choc milk instead. I simply got a cup of milk, added about a heaped teaspoon of cocoa to it and a level tablespoon of glucose, stuck it all in one of my protein shakers and let rip. It tasted lovely! Just like choc milk only no fructose.

I've been eating a lot of whole foods, unprocessed things like fruit and vegetable. I eat a lot of eggs now as well as fish, chicken, beef and nuts.I still have that problem of needing to nibble on something now and then, whereas before I'd reach for something like a biscuit, these days I eat nuts and dried chick peas. They have a lovely crunch to them! I also eat chopped carrot and celery with some chopped cheese. For a sweet treat get some greek yoghurt (full fat) with no sugar and add some fresh or frozen berries and a teaspoon of glucose powder and mix it together. very yum and much better for you than store bought sugar laden yoghurt with pretend fruit.

If you don't think you are addicted to sugar and that it's not playing a big role in your diet, try quitting it for a week and see how you go. You will need to check lables very carefully, and you're not allowed to substitute for artificial sweetners, they are an evil all unto their own! I pretty much stick to unprocessed foods all the way but I do eat tinned corn and sometimes tinned tomato in things like chilli con carne.

So, in a nutshell that's my journey so far on giving up sugar. There's so much more I'd like to bang on about but there's no need because I'm sure you've all checked out that link by now.....;)

Haven't you???

Friday, January 15, 2010

Nothing Sweet About Me.

Hmmm...that reminds me of a song!

On January 2nd 2010 I made the momentous decision to give up sugar. Yes, that's right Give.up.sugar! I mean all sugar too, well, wherever possible.

For years I've had issues with sugar. About 15 years ago I started getting terrible hypoglycaemic attacks where I would feel dizzy, shakey, confused, rapid heart rate, sweat, and I would need an instant carb hit to get me back to 'normal'. My endocrinologist told me that it was my pancreas chugging to a halt, a bit like a car engine that chugs and putters along before finally going kaput!

My last two pregnancies resulted in me having gestational diabetes which never did come under control and I was injecting insulin 4 times a day. Between pregnancies I was also diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. Hardly surprising given the history.

As most know, about 15 months ago I joined a gym so began to get some very regular and very intense exercise. Since then I have literally reversed the effects of the diabetes and can no longer really call myself a diabetic. My 3 monthly HbA1c blood tests have all been around the 5.4 mark for the past 12 months since I started exercising. Exercise does good things!

But, I stil felt something wasn't quite right and I knew there was a lot more to learn with regard to what I was eating. I went on a bit of a quest to see what I could learn and more and more, the damaging effects of sugar kept popping up in the results of my google search.

Then one day, I saw this....

(couldn't embed clip. See link below)

Please, I urge you to watch it. It does go for an hour and a half but I guarantee you it will captivate you as an audience. For me it was life changing, but then again, I was looking to change something, you might not be!

I will be back to post my progress. I did mean to post as I went along but with a house full of visitors and then a broken computer, that just didn't happen! I'm on day 16 now and I remember the worst of it (sorry but sugar withdrawal is a bitch) so will blog about how I'm doing and the crafty ways I have managed to get sugar hits when I most desperately needed them!!

Watch this...

Sugar:The Bitter Truth


Thursday, January 14, 2010

The Jones Boy

...^^^ that's what my Mother calls him lol. When she came to visit she would pick Jonah up, swing him around and sing a song with the lyrics "Have you heard about the Jones boy?"...so it kinda stuck lol. I have no idea what the name of the song was (Probably 'The Jones Boy'!) but now poor Jonah has had another nickname added to his many monikers.

So far he's called (and please don't ask why..I don't know!)

Joe Buster
Jones Boy
J-fizzle (<---they are from big brother Reecey)

and I'm sure there are many others!

Anyhoo, once again he's got me all worried and in a tiz. He's now 18 moths old (yes, you can pick yourself up off the floor now, I found it hard to believe too lol) but he's very very far behind in his milestones. I mean, really really far behind. He's actually ticking almost all of the 'Signs you should be worried' boxes :(

Yes I know he will catch up, all in his own good time and honestly I'm not panicking or crying into my weetbix, I'm just sad for him. Life has been a struggle for him since long before he took his first breath and it seems it's not letting up any time soon.

We have more blood tests and paed/gastro appointments coming up in the next month so hopefully we can start some early intervention sooner rather than later.

I knew all that behavioral therapy training would come in handy again!!

Christmas pics.

As you can see, this years theme was red and white. It was a smaller table this year as some of our guests from last year were spending Christmas with others. Once again, it was a magical day. I can't wait for Jonah to be old enough to understand what it's all about. Luke and Sam were just about to explode by Christmas eve they were SO exctited lol.

This years turkey was done with an almond and tarragon stuffing. It was the biggest bird I had ever cooked as we left our run a little late to buy it and that's all that was left. 5.8kg, it didn't fit in my convection oven so I had to cook him in the standard oven with its uneven temperature!

It turned out lovely though and it all got eaten so I was happy!

This Christmas we also had my eldest son and his girlfriend visiting so once again, all five of my boys were together. This was only the second time this has happened and it was their first Christmas together. I was a very happy Mama <3

For those of you who don't have me on FB. Here are the pics of Christmas 2009.

Sam's 4th birthday.

Some pics of Sam's 4th birthday. Can you believe he's 4??!!!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Moving House Again!

Blogger sucks. Seriously, I can't do anything! can't paste, can't follow anyone can't add widgets, nothing! And Blogger still won't unlock my other blog :(

So I'm moving to wordpress.

I'm still figuring out how to use it but hopefully I will be able to post pics and links over there.

Come find me here...


See you there!! xxx

Ok, so...I suck!

Yes once again I admit, I suck at blogging. I guess my heart just isn't in it since they tore down fiveby40. But, alas I am no quitter so I am aiming to resume as soon and as regularly as possible.

It still sucks bigtime that I can't paste anything in here. Does anyone know why? Nothing pastes at all so I can't put pics in here.

Anyhoo, quick rundown of life so far in 2010.

Christmas: Was awesome. Jdude was sick, poor little bear but Firstborn and his darling gf were here to share it with us so that made it a great day. Everything went off without a hitch. If you want to see pics send me a request on facebook. Just let me know your name so I can add you.

New year: Again, prefect! We had two lovely sets of friends over and partied on until after midnight as much as one my age can! Actually I think I stayed up until about 1.30am so that was good.

2010: The year so far. We've had my IL's visiting us for the past week. They came to celebrate Sam's 4th birthday as they had never had a chance to see him for his birthday before now. Sam had a great party and if I could I'd post a pic of his awesome spider cake, made by moi! Yes, blowing own trumpet once again but when no one else will, what can you do?!?!

My newest venture this year is going sugar free...Yep, cutting out all sugar and that means in everything processed as well. Did you know peanut butter has about as much sugar added to it as coke? True. Frightening but true.

Sugar withdrawal is nasty. I've been off it for 12 days now and I intended to blog about it every day but this thing called life got in the way and well, you know how it goes.

Ok, off to try and see if I can fix this pasting problem. In the mean time I think I will just add a bunch of pics from the album via "Add image" and let you all sort through them.

Back soon! I promise ;)